Shattered Illusions

My world was shattered. Truths became known, realised, brought forth, pointed out to me. Real truths. My Illusions were destroyed. Illusions of hope, of expectations, that I had a strong grip on. A friend pried my fingers off the illusions, the hope, told me to let go. showed me that they will never eventuate. She was right. I was kidding myself. I fell for a couple of days, in a dark slipperly tunnel.

Today I landed at the bottom. I see the light, but I am not sure how to get back to it. I dont know how to move towards it right now. I will find a new way to live. I will find how to deal with the truth.

I must not make new illusions. I must live absolute truth. I must not make hopes and expectations. What will drive me forwards now?

It is not easy, but it is right.